“Loki?” Tony asked, not really minding the situation he had suddenly found himself in, but feeling a little concerned nonetheless. In that moment, Tony half expected Loki to be angry, though he couldn’t guess why– but when he glanced up, it was to find those bright green eyes coloured with something almost frantic. Loki’s hands were on Tony’s shoulders at first, but they released him almost instantly– though Loki remained so close that Tony could feel his breath against his cheek. Someone grabbed his arm, pulling him from Rhodey’s hold-Īnd then Tony’s back slammed against one of his bedroom walls, the wind almost knocked out of him. And when Rhodey won the race, Tony allowed himself to be pulled back up to join in the victory dance, laughing with Rhodey at Clint’s pout and more than gladly returning Rhodey’s thrilled hug.īut he had barely curled his arms around Rhodey’s back when he heard a sound from behind, something almost like a growl. But he couldn’t do anything about that, so instead he focused on what he could– he focused on his friend, leaned against Rhodey’s shoulder and yelled loudly as Clint nailed him with a blue shell, and then cheered in appreciative triumph as Rhodey managed the same. Tony was still sat beside Rhodey on the couch, still wishing that he was sitting somewhere else. Rhodey didn’t look like he entirely believed that, but he clapped Tony’s shoulder once more before picking up his controller and loudly challenging Clint to the long-awaited showdown. “No need to worry that pretty head of yours, Care Bear.”
“Yeah, I’m fine,” Tony told him, shoving the thoughts away. “Are you okay, Tones?” Rhodey asked, his hand coming to rest on Tony’s shoulder and pulling him from his musings. He could manage knowing that Loki would be there for him to hold in the night, the cover of darkness aiding the fantasy that what happened between them when they were alone was the reality, and that the daytime was the dream– rather than the other way around. Because what he had was better than nothing, and he could go through so many hard days buoyed only by the thought of what awaited him at the end of it. And while that hurt, Tony was willing to endure it.
Sure, they slept in the same bed and yeah, okay, so Loki was a cuddler and Tony wasn’t going to deny himself the indulgence of that, but outside Tony’s bed they hardly even acknowledged each other. What they had was only casual– it was just sex, nothing more. He wanted everyone to know that Loki was his– hell, he wanted to be able to know that Loki was his, that they were together in the way that he longed for.īut… Loki didn’t want that. Tony wanted nothing more than to cross the room and curl up in that armchair with him, to just stay in the comfort of Loki’s arms. It was hard, because when they were out in the Tower with the rest of the Avengers, when Tony was dragged into conversations he often didn’t really want to have– or when Rhodey came over to prove his prowess at video games and restore the high score that Clint had beaten the week before – Tony would be on one side of the room on the couch while Loki would be on the other, sitting in his favourite isolated armchair and not quite engaging in whatever was happening around him. When they were together, Tony could almost imagine that everything was perfect, that the world was exactly aligned and something in Tony’s life was finally going right.īut the more that Tony fell into seeing the perfection of those moments, the more that the times in between began to grate, began to scratch at his insides and make him wish that things could be a little different. They learned each other’s bodies with a speed that could only be credited to their eagerness, and the sex was better than anything else Tony had ever experienced– more so for the fact that both during and after they were able to talk and joke and just be themselves with no need for any performance. Loki could make Tony laugh with an ease that no one else managed, and he never pushed Tony for anything more than he was willing to give– though to be honest, Loki could have asked for the moon and Tony would have found a way to get it for him.
It wasn’t that things were awkward between them, or that they were incompatible in some way– in fact, when they were actually together, they got along far better than they had any right to.
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